THE ARTIST AT 40: A LATE NIGHT/EARLY MORNING REFLECTION by Katie Wilson

First posted on my 40th birthday on July 2, 2012

Well I’m 40. Wow! I can’t believe it really. That always seemed old to me. And I don’t feel old. I don’t think I look old. Not smoking or using drugs has paid off: I only have about 12 gray hairs and almost no wrinkles…My skin is good…great even. I still have all my teeth. Grandma would like that. I am happy and productive. I laugh and sing A LOT! People need me. I have a career that fulfills me and through which I know I am making a difference in the world. I have enjoyed and continue to enjoy the love and devotion of a wonderful family, dear friends, inspiring colleagues, and beloved students. The people in my life…loved ones and strangers….have made me a better person. I have seen the realization of so many hopes and dreams. God saw fit to make music the way I primarily communicate with the world and through which I look to und erstand it. I’ve known heartache and despair to be sure…but honestly, only as a result of loving fiercely…so I don’t regret or resent it…the love was always worth it. I feel smarter, stronger, sexier, and happier now than I ever have…and I only crave to be bolder, braver, and better! So what is the song of my life now? Hmmmmm…..can’t pick just one. Perhaps a combo platter of I’m Still Here, Before The Parade Passes By, and So Much Better. Hahaha. This year, I heard a sermon encouraging us to trust in the God of Surprises. Well God of Surprises, you sure have been at it in this girl’s life! And it has been a glorious ride so far. I will continue to trust you to keep me guessing and keep me happily surprised by all you throw my way….I know your dreams for me are bigger than the ones I still hold in my heart for myself! I thank God for a wonderful life and am ready to get started on the next 40…♥